At and Impasse!

I seriously am at an impasse at the moment! and don't know what to do! I have sat back and watched my husband work hard to keep this family afloat financially through the hard stages of our marriage and find it hard right now to not step in and yell at everyone who comes in my path! My husband is a very good man and has worked his butt off to keep us from living on the street! He worked hard at Real Estate to have people stab him in the back and use someone else! now he is working in Management and was basically told take on three departments or leave! So he did what he had to do to support our family to find out that it was too much stress for him to handle! He has on a # of occasions asked for an assistant and to his surprise been told he doesn't need one! that he should be able to handle it! even though he has said I am not working at a hundred percent please give me the help I need to do my job and work effectively! So I don't know if these guys are just dumb but does that not sound like a cry for help? or am I just imagining it? Also there has been another supervisor that has gotten another department added to their work load and the bosses are telling Darin that that worker is handling it no problem. but you have to know that this worker has only two departments and three assistants so how is that even comparable? What is so wrong with giving Darin just ONE assistant! is that too much to ask! he is already saving the company over $60,000/ year just by managing the three departments for the amount of pay they are giving him so what is so hard about giving him one assisant? I often think what is there a store manager for other than doing the paper work does he really do anything he has three assistants who have how many managers doing their jobs so why is it that Darin gets dumped on and is told to suck it up! I almost everyday want to walk into that store and ask the Manager and the Assistant Managers who the hell they think they are? and how many other stores have one manager over 20 staff with out an assistant manager! I bet there would be very very few if not any! So why now? I don't know what to do here! I love my Husband and support him in the things he does to support this family but how do you stick up for him with out making it worse? Not to mention he has been applying for other jobs and no body has called him back! Am I the one that needs to relieve him and go out and get a job or do I follow the Teachings of our prophets and stay home and watch him hurt and get stressed and depressed because he wants and needs to provide for our family with a job that is tearing him apart emotionally and physically with the amount of hours he puts in! My husband is a very good man and a very hard worker so to see him being torn at the seams is quite heart wrenching! Seriously I am at an Impasse!

Dentist Day!~

Dentist Day

Today Darin, Jaxon and I all went to the dentist thought we were getting a cleaning but just ended up getting a check up! I have not been to the dentist in a very long time well I guess you could say since I got my wisdom teeth out when I was 17 so to my surprise I had no cavities! which is a very big surprise since I have never been very good at taking care of my teeth the way that I should!

How ever the huge surprise is that my kids brush their teeth way more often than I ever did and Jaxon has 9 cavities! my kids the other surprise to that is my kids rarely ever have candy or pop or juice for that matter so for him to have that many cavities is beyond me! The poor kid will have to be put out and they will do all the work at once so that is nice! how ever the price tag will not be the thing I will be so happy about if the dentist takes less than an hour to do all the work as it will cost us about $900 for the anesthetic! so we will pray he takes more than an hour!

I also talked to the dentist about getting my one Eye tooth moved into place as it is off and it is hard to brush in the crevice and get all the gunk out of it! and he said I had to options as he looked at the bite of my teeth and notice that my bit is off so here are the options!

Option #1:

get some braces and just move the one tooth which I would have braces for about a year and then my teeth would look good and I would be able to brush the one that has been bothering me since it came in when I was a little! so if we know how much braces cost it would be about $2000 just for cosmetics!

Option #2:

My bite is off so the Dentist said that if I don't do anything about it then it will where my teeth down and I will have jaw problems in the future so to fix that it would be get braces for 2-2 1/2 years and fix every thing so I don't have the problem when I am older! so if we do this option we are looking at about $5000 or more and then my all my problems will be solved!

I guess Option #3

Would be to do NOTHING, and then of course have lots of problems later when I am in my 40's and have to get braces any way! So I will be going to a specialist and they will do a free consultation and then I guess we will make a decision from there.

Nice interesting day at the dentist!

Chores and Fun!

Well yesterday my kids decided that it would be fun to take make a hole in the wall with their door knob and start taking all the plaster out of the hole! So being the nice Mom I am I gave them a choice on how they wanted to fix the hole! The First suggestion was to take all the money out of their piggy banks to pay for the damage and to fix it! and they both said no we are saving that money for things that we want! Second suggestion was that they help me do chores all day long! and to my surprise they say ok we will help you mom to pay for the whole! Surprise you might ask why well my kids hate to do chores! so I just started going through things that would make them never do that again but still make it fun enough that they would still want to learn how to work hard later!

1st chore! cleaning the kitchen! well Jaxon unloaded the cutlery and Erika helped me start to clean up the dishes that were all over the kitchen! we cleaned unloaded the dishwasher! cleaned of the table, and then because I am such a nice mom I made Jaxon Vacuum the Kitchen Chairs and Erika wash them down! then we mopped the floor!

2nd chore! cleaning their room! so while I was wiping things down in the kitchen I had Jaxon and Erika Race to see who could pick up 5 toys the fastest, then laundry and so one until their room was clean!

3rd chore! the living room! well the living room was a disaster so we started out with one corner and then moved to the next and they picked up everything toys, news papers ec. until it was clean enough that I could vacuum!

well by this time it was about 11am and they had already been cleaning since about 7:30am so they were getting tired! so we proceeded onto the next chore Ethan's room!

4th Chore! we had another race who could pick up the most toys (Ethan's room is also the toy room) while I put Ethan's Clothes away and we did that until it was finished! by this time the kids were so tired of doing chores so I let them have a break! and they got to watch a movie while I made lunch!

After lunch they still hadn't gotten dressed for the day from doing all the cleaning but we needed to go help Grandma and Grandpa Heninger but before we could do that we had another chore to do!

5th Chore! Pop Bottles. Jaxon has never helped me out with the pop bottles before so his chore was to come and help me take the pop bottles to the depot and we had lots (5 Bags) so I was teaching him the importance of recycling them, and if we did this then you would get money for saving! and of course this was a fun chore!

On to Grandma's! well grandma and grandpa needed our help hooking up a dvd player so Jaxon got to lean how to do that as one of his chores!

I believe that when you are trying to teach your kids a lesson that you need to make it miserable and fun! specially in this case since my kids already hated chores but they got to lean that working hard helps you earn things( in this case paying for the hole they made) and not all work has to be miserable! So today was teaching them to work hard, recycle, and service( helping the grandparents)!

To my surprise the kids were really good no wining other than being tired and they were still happy by the end of the day!

Now on to the fun! Darin's Birthday is on Sunday and I wanted to do something for him that he would enjoy so I planned a double date with friends that we never get to see and surprised him with it! He never new what we were doing, where we were going, and who we were going with! When the Baby sitter got to hour house we I told him to go to our friends in laws and he gave me this weird look! and then our friends got in the van, and to make it fun, I just told him which way to go instead of telling him where were going! But I think he really enjoyed that! We ended up going with our REALLY good friends Merrill and Christi Strong to Darin's Favorite restaurant MOXIES and of course we had a blast! It was some good times! got to catch up! You know it is amazing how long you can go with out seeing someone but when they are your friends it is like you never went different ways and you just pick up where things left off! Really cool! well we had lots of fun and I hope Darin liked his Birthday Present!

Well that was our day in a nut shell!

LOVE!

Well today has been a really good day! two weeks ago tomorrow I had a D&C for a my 11 week miscarriage. And I have to say that I over the last two weeks have been reflecting on what is most important in this life. I know that I will see that baby again! whether it be in this life or the next. So rather than reflecting on the fact that I lost the baby I have been trying to remind my self everyday of the things I do have, and that this is what the Savior has in store for me whether I like it or not.

I have noticed that I have been trying my hardest to have a better relationship with my kids who I love to pieces and the Love of my life! I have found it really hard the last few weeks to not get the butterflies in my stomach every time my husband walks by me! I LOVE him with all my heart. Marriage is never easy but I find that I love my husband more everyday even with the imperfections, disagreements and so forth. None of us are perfect! I don't know and can't even imagine what life would be like with out him! He has done more for me in the last few days than I think he really realizes, but that is what we are here for! To love each other, and carry each other through the good and the bad throughout all ETERNITY!

I know that this miscarriage happened for a reason. I don't know what the reason is yet but I am sure the Savior had his reasons and purposes! I love how the Lord works. I am truly great full for my trials as I go through life. It builds our minds and spirits in ways that we never could have thought possible, and shapes us into the people the Lord wants us to be! Just like him! I have known many women who have gone through this and it amazes me the strength that they have and it has inspired me to be strong and rely on my Savior. Because through HIM we can and will accomplish any thing that is thrown at us!

The start of a new way of life!

Well today I decided to start a blog!

Never thought I would do that but there is a first for everything. Well today is a start to a new way of life for me! Today I am doing my first cleanse day of the Isagenix Health and Wellness program, and I am already feeling good and starting to feel healthy.

Today is a start to a new way of life.

There are so many things that I need to start doing so first priority for me is getting my health back. We are nothing and can do thing with out or health, and most of us would give anything for our health back if we ever lost it. That is how I have felt over the last 6 months either being sick my self or sick kids! I want to be that Mom that can do things with my kids not the one that sits back and watches because of poor health! Today I start my journey to weight loss and healthy eating choices!

Today is the start of keeping a record of the things I do.

since I am on the computer most of the time I feel that this would be a way of keeping track or a journal of the things my Family does and the way I feel during the day! maybe one day I will be able to put it in a book so my kids can read and see the record that I have made of their lives. I have had a hard time since being married to Find time to keep this record written in a journal so here is to blogging!