My Favourite part of Higher Laws..

There is so many things to be grateful for in life. Over the last few days  I have been at this Event called Master your power within. There have been so many lessons that I have learned, but thanks to Brandon Broadwater I have come to realize that you can go no where that matters with out your Partner. 

I have realized, that it doesn matter how much success I have in life, if I can't share it with My husband it truly doesn't matter. 

I have wanted to put the Higher Laws that I have so desperately needing to here into practice, but I couldn't reach my full potential if my Husband wasn't on the same page. I have seen miracles happen in the last few days. 

I have learned new things I didn't realize before and it has brought me so much joy to be able to share that joy with my husband because we are in the same state of mind. 

I am truly grateful to Brandon Broadwater for his willingness to teach the Higher Laws of life. If each of us cleave unto the principals taught we can make huge impact in the lives of those we love, and cherish. We will go everywhere that Matters with them.  And we will create the influence we need to encourage those around us to share their light with others. 

Feeling Blessed!

     For some reason today I feel really blessed.. I have been dealing with a leg injury from playing softball and I have been feeling kind of down with that because I was training for a 5k run that is supposed to take place on Saturday.. I am still going to run but having to rest up  has been very hard on me.. but with the things that have gone on over the last couple of weeks.. my mind keeps coming back to me "It Could Be Worse"  I could have broke my leg instead of pulling a muscle or what ever the case maybe.. I can still walk and do everything for my self I just have to deal with a little bit of pain.. which in the long run is but a small moment in my life that is I guess you could call an irritation...  Everyone who knows me knows that I am a busy body and having to stay off my feet hasn't been easy! but it has made me realise that it could be worse.. Heavenly Father knows what we are going through at each moment in our lives and knows the pain we go through.. But most importantly he knows how to help us if we just ask...

       Being a Relief Society President hasn't been a piece of cake for me.. I feel like I have grown so much in the Gospel in just a few months but I feel like I still have so much to learn... The thing I have noticed more is the spirit in my life.. I know when I am speaking for the Lord and when his spirit engulfs me that I am saying what he needs me to say at that point to whom ever I am taking to... I can't say that I have ever really felt that until now unless I was baring my Testimony..  I am finding also I can see the Lords tender mercies in my life, and my out look on people as a whole is way different as well... I can't say I enjoy the part of knowing every ones problems because of the person I am all I want to do is fix it all, but then have to realise that those people have to fix their own lives and live with what ever the consequences may be...


      After being called as a Relief Society President I have reflected back on my life many times wondering if Heavenly Father made the right choice in me..  A couple of years ago I never would have even dreamed of being called to this position, I was no where near in the right mind set or even in the right spiritual mind set to have a position like this.. However after moving to Calgary and changing my outlook on life My total outlook changed.. I went from asking my self every week if I was going to go to church that day to it not being an option that we would attend every week unless we were ill..  And not baring my testimony in Sacrament meeting in 5 years to being comfortable enough to bare it almost every other month..  I know that my Husband was inspired to move us to Calgary and to move us into the house we did..  We prayed that we would be put into a good ward.. and I have to say when you feel as welcomed into a ward as we did on our first week here, that's when it starts. New people move into your life, new friends, new co-workers  and your life changes into something you never would have dreamed of.  The Lord knows who to put in your life and when in order for him to mould you into the person he wants and knows you to become..  You just have to be willing to Listen..


     I have gone through a lot of experiences in my life most of them came with a lot of sorrow.. some were happy and some were amazing.. But I know now that I had to go through those experiences to become the person I am today.. If it wasn't for those experiences I wouldn't be Me.. There are many Trials that we are given, some we just survive, some we go through pretty good and some are on going and never stop.. but those experiences build us or break us depending on the way we choose to live through it! Some of our trials we feel we didn't get through with very much stamina however each trial does build us in some way.. We may not think so but when you reflect back you always learn something from that trial that will help you in another one..



      I am forever grateful to the trials that I have had and will yet go through.. I am grateful for the opportunity to serve the Women in my Church and to help them in any way I can, Even if I have to share experiences in my life that were sad or sorrowful, if it will help them through what ever trial they are going through I will do it in a heart beat.. Trials to me are like an Education you can't learn  from them in  a text book it is all hands on... but you always learn something that you didn't know before! and they are meant to be shared to help someone else along the way!  We are not alone in our trials our Heavenly Father is there every step of the way! We may not always feel that way but he is there in the sidelines Cheering us on, and Moulding us into the people he wants us to become!

Our Trip to Vegas

 Our Trip to Vegas!

 My Husband and I need to talk a much needed vacation as we hadn't been on one for over 3 years and with having 4 kids you tire out very quickly so we decided to treat our selves after saving up to go to Vegas.. I know the City of Sin but there is lots to do there that is fun and doesn't involve any thing bad.. Our Trip started off by driving down to Cardston to drop of our kids at Darin's parents well Ethan and Rocky stayed there and it was such a beautiful night we decided to take a walk around Temple Square.. We Reflected on how long it had been since we had been on a walk with out kids and to our surprise it had been since our 1st year of marriage pretty much.. there was light rain that night but with the heat it actually felt nice.. there is nothing better than walking in the rain with someone you love unconditionally.. admiring the Lords House!

 Day 1.. We took a long trip down to Great Falls to Catch or plane.. and drove in a major rain storm on the way down. it was bad but got there in plenty of time before our plane!

 we finally get on the plane after being an hour late for Mechanical issues.. a Fuel Gage was not working so they had to fix it.. Scary but we made it to Vegas way later than we thought..

 Our first night in Vegas we decided to walk the strip at night because it was way cooler that way!

 Darin took a pick with Bumble Bee.. just so he could show Jaxon!

 just one of the Two buffets that we went to..It was good food!  (circus Circus buffet)

Day 2 we went to the Tresure Island show where they have a battle between two boats a boat of girl pirates and a boat of boy Pirates it was actually pretty cool it was with all sorts of music and fireworks it was a great time..

Day 3.. We started the day off by going to the CSI exhibit and it was awesome I think I enjoyed it way more that Darin did but I like that kind of stuff. we got to go through and actually solve a crime and we were emailed a certificate.. unfortunately it won't let me upload a the certificate but it is pretty cool! I would go back and do it again it was that fun..
 we decided that this year we would buy our kids stuff they could use instead of a t-shirt that would just end up getting to small for them so we visited the M&M store yeah like four floors of stuff was crazy I think we spent maybe like 2 hours in there! we even got to see a free 10 Min 3D Movie.. was awesome..

 Day 3.. we went to see Rock of Ages and it was so awesome it was great we were sitting in the nose bleed section at this point..

 but an awesome lady moved us up to VIP seating and we were put in the 3rd row from the front! 

Awesome..

 we got to sit in the Zebra print seats and we were all Rock Stars for the night!

 This was the cast.. they did a great job..

 After Rock of Ages we had to go see the fountain show at the Bellagio.. it was amazing as always..

 They did the fountain show to the PinkPanther music was epic!

 Day 4.. We saved the Best for last we went to the Wax Museum it was awesome.. can I just say it was creepy.. the wax figures looked exactly like the real Stars like all the way down to the color of their eyes it was very creepy to walk in a room thinking they were just going to start walking and then not move..

Day 5 We started our day off really early had to wake up at 4:15am  Vegas time to catch our flight at 8:00am or flight was on time which was nice.. we drove back to Cardston  and stayed the night but we got to see Les Miserables and I have to say they did such a good job they deserve to have a show in Vegas.. brought me to tears in many parts of the show.. Vocals were spectacular..

 Most importantly I got to spend this vacation with my wonderful Husband and I am so glad that we went.. We don't have a huge a mount of money but when you don't have a schedule and you save up so you can just do what you want it seems to make your vacation just that much better..

Van Delivery! What?

My Birthing Story

Well it all started with taking some gross caster oil drink with orange juice and this lemon essential oil. First dose was at 12:00 noon second dose was at 3:00pm.. didn't start having contractions until about 5:45pm and were about 5 mins apart not too hard I could still talk through them and so we played the waiting game! we had our kids picked up by a really nice lady in our ward who graciously took our kids over night when she had 4 of her own! and she picked them up around 7:30ish... my contractions started to get stronger around 8:00pm so started to time them more! but they were still only about 5 mins apart! called our midwife at about 8:30 and asked her if she could come and check to see how I was doing! and it took her a good hour to get here! by that time I was in the tub and trying to breath through my contractions.. My mid wife arrived at the house about 9:30 -9:45 at which point she checked me and I was a whopping 5cm at that point she started to call the hospitals to see if there was any rooms available! and one with a tub cause I wanted to finish labouring in a tub.. we called Rocky View first and there was no rooms available! then we called Peter Louheed had no rooms at all available! so we decided to make the trek to Foothills! where they had a room for us!

So we get in the Van and Started driving! at this point my contractions were about 2 mins apart I was in the back seat as it was the only place I could get on my hands and knees if I need to slow down labour! well I was doing good and breathing through my contractions! and then about 4 blocks from the hospital I started to get this really bad contraction I screamed out! and flipped on to my knees and clung to Ethan's car seat for support! then my body thought thanks for doing that I am going to now push a baby out! so my Body started pushing and the only thing going through my mind was don't let my water break! so I screamed at Darin and said "I am having a baby" and he didn't believe me.. He said " we are all most there, your water hasn't broken yet you will be fine just breath." that is when I screamed out and said no the heads out and the water just broke! he started to honk the horn at our mid wife that we were following to the hospital! he then started to pull over to the side of the road ( Banff Trail) and the baby basically fell out of my body!( in my pants) at that point I picked the baby up Darin got out of the van I asked for one of the blankets that we had brought for the baby and I started cleaning him off as Darin called the Midwife to tell her we had just had the baby in the back of the Van!... She came back to the van and made sure he was breathing which he was so she said normally we would call the ambulance but we are only like 2 blocks from the hospital so do you want to just drive to the hospital! and of course I wanted to just drive to the hospital! So we got to the hospital and I was just a pretty sight, covered in blood and sitting in a wheel chair but my mid wife did a very good job at getting me into the room so we could cut the cord and so I could deliver the placenta! she then was amazing got me all cleaned off and I fed him! and then we weighed him and was very surprised that he was not a 9lb baby as I would have expected since he was 8 days late! So he weighed in at 7lbs 10oz and 19 3/4 inches long! We are so happy that he was able to come into this world at the Hand of our Lord and Saviour! and that he was born safely despite the fact that it was in the back of the van and totally un assisted. He is a blessing that we will Cherish for the rest of our lives and are very happy and grateful he has entered into our lives and our family! I feel very Blessed to have had this experience even with how crazy it is! but I know that I had My Heavenly Father watching out for me every step of the way!

Mountains (trials)!

 Today I stayed home from church as I am in the last part of my pregnancy and can't get around much, and haven't been feeling to awesome either! been very exhausted and drained! So for part of my time home I relaxed and slept to try and get some of my energy back! the other part of it I had a shower to continue to relax and then I decided to go down to my computer and watch some movies on the LDS website one really caught my eye! called "Men's hearts shall fail them" and in there Elder Russell M Nelson quoted "Perfection comes not in this life but in the next life, don't demand things that are unreasonable but demand of your self improvement." as I look at my life and the things that I have personally been going through. I have sat back and always wondered how it is that Satan is so cunning to sneak in and take away that you have been working so hard towards! you make goals as an individual and as a family and think that you are doing so well to keep it going! and it just takes one time of saying I am too tired to do that tonight! and then you are back to not doing those things you know are the way and the light of the Gospel!  As I heard this quote from Elder Neslon it reiterated to me that I don't have to be perfect in this life as long as I demand of my self to improve my situation as I realise that I have faltered! I know that is way easier said than done but as long as you let the Lord guide you then you will get what you are needing at that point in your life!

     As a family we have always even when I was a kid watched Walt Disney as our movie time and today just happened to be Hanna Montana and I absolutely love this song she sings at the end! it is not a song about religion but if you listen to the lyrics then it really does take on a higher meaning to Climb ( endure to the end) meaning for me! We are always going to have trials (mountains to climb) and it doesn't matter how long it takes us to get over it but how we endure it! and we may not always endure it well but the Saviour Loves us for who we are! He knows our hearts, and he knows we are doing our best to get over that mountain...

As I prepare my self to have another Child in just a few short weeks! I have had to really think about what the Saviour wants!  I for a long time didn't want this baby and still have a hard time wrapping my head around having a fourth child and being able to cope! but I know the Lord would not have given me this blessing if he didn't know that I could do it! The Lord works in really mysterious ways! he knows our hearts before we do! every time I feel this baby move I know that I will Love him as soon as I see him..  No matter how many times I have said to my self! why am I having another child? I didn't want this, Not right now! I always new we would have four kids but after my last miscarriage and then moving to a big city I wanted to wait for a while, but the Lord had a different plan for me! and I have come to learn to accept it! The LORDS will be done! not mine! I know that the more I turn to my Saviour the more he will help and bless me through my Mountains.
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Disaster of a Bedroom!

Disaster of a bedroom!

I Can't believe how long I let me room just pile up with baskets full of folded clothes and just Junk! I guess when you move you don't always get everything unpacked and then sometimes when you clean everything gets piled into your room to save time on cleaning! Me it is all of the above and just not having enough energy this pregnancy to clean and organize! but I had to clean it as I needed room to put the play pen for the baby in there some where! and I didn't want my side of the bed against the wall any longer! so here are some of my embarrassing pictures of my room!

This shot is of the closet area that never got fully unpacked when we moved and where all my baskets of folded laundry ended up! SAD!

My closet now all nicely organized and boxes are gone play pen is set up and ready for when baby comes! now I don't have to worry where the baby is going to sleep!

I feel so good to get this done it isn't everyday you take on a project like that! and actually get done before the day is out! but I am one of those determined women! when I put my mind to something I do it.. or in never gets done and will just sit and wait! not to mention it will be nice to have a clutter free room for a while! I guess until we start adding baby things!

Maybe now that my room looks nice I can put some things on the walls and make it look that much more like a room!

Now it is definitely time to REST!

Family Fun!

Swimming and Pizza

Even though we have had some heart ache this past week we have been able to suppress it with a little Family fun! My sister invited us over to the hotel for Swimming and Pizza something that we don't always get to do especially with family!! We had such a good time it was nice to see family and see the cousins playing together! my sister took all the pics that I am about to post as I didn't have my camera but she was able to capture some really good shots of my kids!!

Ethan sitting at the hot tub just getting a feel for the water!

Ethan found the little kids slide and thought it was the best thing in the world! He didn't want to get off of it! He had so much fun!

Erika found the little kid slide and couldn't get enough of it!

Erika Hanging in the hot tub! She loves that warm water just like her dad!

Erika wanted to go down the big slide so bad but I didn't have the right kind of shorts on to go down so we found a girl that was there to take her down and this was right before she decided it would be a nice day to drowned! but I jumped in and saved her! just need to teach her remember to hold your breath!

Jaxon has never been a water kid until we moved to Calgary and this pick is so funny My sister captured it just as he was holding his breath before hitting the water! I think this is so much fun cause he never stopped till it was time to go!

Jaxon swimming to the edge of the pool to get out and go down the slide again!

I love hanging out with my family especially doing fun recreational stuff like this! It kind of takes me back to when I was kid! I can still remember going swimming at the Cardston Pool all the time! Glad we got to spend time with family! Family is so precious and we need to stay close to the ones we love!